Saturday, April 25, 2009

There's a new blog in town

Hi everyone!
Thank you so much for following along my infertility journey. I've decided to start a new blog that will chronicle our adoption journey, as well as just my life in general.

I'm still planning on updating this one every now & again, but I'd love it if you came over to my new blog: A Whole Lot of Hope

Thanks again for all of your support, it has meant so much to me.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Sorry, it's a BFN

I know a lot of people were holding out hope for me, so it pains me even more to let you know that AF started today. 

I don't have much else to say. 

Friday, April 3, 2009

About my beta tomorrow...

Note: This entry was started about a week ago....

Next Saturday I have my beta test. I'll be 15 days past IUI. Knowing me, I'll test early. I'll go back to the dollar tree and fill my basket with tests & try to avoid looking in the cashiers eye. Or, maybe I could have some fun... like buy an Easter basket and put all of them in that & hand it to the cashier with a smile. At least I'd maybe give 'em something to remember!

So, in any case, next week I think is the end of the fertility treatment road for me for a while. In a perfect world, that reason will be of course because of a successfulIUI.

Here's the latest: I'm 14 days past IUI. I took a HPT on Day 12, and it was negative. I took another one this evening & it was negative. I will take another one tomorrow. I'm assuming it will also be negative.

I have decided not to get a blood/beta test done unless I get a positive. I have ten tests left, that should satisfy me until AF comes. As I wrote in a different forum earlier (I'll just c&p, so I don't have to write it all out again):

About my Beta on Saturday...I've decided not to go. I'm going to go to the dollar store & buy 10 pg tests. If any one of them say positive in the next few days, then I'll go take a blood test, but otherwise I'm not going.

The last beta I had, two months ago, was excruciatingly hard on me. I had already taken a pg test and it was negative. I remembered my doctor saying that sometimes someone would take a hpt in the morning, it would be negative, and then they'd come in & the beta would be positive. That got me in there the last time, I but I bawled all the way to the clinic, and all the way while she was taking my blood, and then all the way home, and then of course I got the call that it was negative I completely broke down. So, I'm not going to do that to myself again. If it's negative I will cry, I'll feel defeated, but at least I can do it in the privacy of my own home. I won't have to dread getting that call, with a live person telling me it's over...

I feel a nice burden off my shoulders... going to the clinic is just too stressful for me right now!

So there you have it... I'll update if I get a BFP, but for now, let's just assume it's BFN.