Herbs now, too?

So this weekend I'm not feeling very optimistic. I had a good acupuncture session yesterday, but it wasn't very reassuring. I brought in my temperature chart from this cycle so far, and she was silent for a long time, and after talking to her it was obvious that she didn't see anything that looked like ovulation. She really wants me to start herbs, but I've been very resistant. I have a pretty cynical attitude; and a pretty good bullshit detector, if I do say so myself ;)... so when people start trying to upsell me on anything I tend to smile politely & say "no thank you." So, that's what I thought this was, an upsell. She asked me the reason that I didn't want to try the herbs & I listed 3 true points:
1. My stomach is sensitive and I have a hard enough time with pre-natals (I've resorted to taking Flintsones vitamins & folic acid supplements).

2. I'm taking other medications & I don't know what the reaction would be.

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3. We're on a budget (so I can actually raise this baby as a SAHM if I ever get there), it's already a stretch to my pocketbook to spend as much as we are on weekly treatments; and I overheard her giving the grand total of one acupuncture treatment, plus herbs to a new client, and the total was nearly $300.00 - I'm already having a hard time convincing my dh that this is worthwhile, adding another $100.00+ into the mix a month would not go over that well....

So, I told her my concerns, and she had answers for everything. I can try pills or teas for the herbs, many of her patients are on the exact same medications as I am & have not had problems with the herbs, and she thinks its so important that she's willing to give them to me as part of my treatment fee, so in essence - free. Well, "free" is all I really need to hear, so next cycle I'll try the herbs.

Today is day 21 of a my cycle & my doctor wanted me to get my progesterone tested today to see if I ovulated. I already know (think?) the answer is no, so my mind is already on the next cycle. It's got to happen one of these days, right? Right?

That leads me to an odd conversation I had with Dh. I was telling him about being disappointed that nothing is happening fast, and I want us to be parents so bad.
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Dh: Well, how long have we been trying?
Me: (holds up two fingers)
Dh: Right - two weeks.
Me: No! (holds up two fingers)
Dh: Ok, Two months. Two years?? No, that's not right. I mean really trying. We weren't timing anything, we weren't even having sex regularly. Now we're actually trying, and it's just been a few weeks.
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Uh, Ok... but it is sort of nice to think that maybe we are just starting! I was lackadaisical about the whole thing because I just assumed it would be easy & happen when it happened. So I'm a little more empowered and it feels good.

That still didn't stop me from being in a major weird funk last night that was only broken by begrudgingly going swimming. That felt good & I'm looking forward to more of it now the weather has turned.

One last thing, I read all of your comments, and thank all of you! One of these days I'll respond to any questions that come up in them, but my time on the computer is sort of limited until I get my laptop & don't have to share with dh.

What a full day!

I'm just waking up from what must be a food & acupuncture fueled coma.

Yesterday was my first acupuncture appointment. I'm going a bit out of my way, but the acupuncturist I'm seeing came with very good references, and I feel sort of afloat when making these kinds of decisions. My time is fairly limited, so I can't go to lots of random places from the internet & hope to find someone that I like. So, I went to one recommended to me by a Nestie who now has a little one. I actually saw this Nestie yesterday & she sort of off-handedly mentioned the cycle she started seeing this acupuncturist was the one she got pg on. So we'll see!

At the acupuncture appointment I filled out as short questionnaire about my health, diet and exercise history, (which included questions about my mood & stress level). Mood: Moderate; Stress level 3 out of 10 (not too bad, right?). Diet: poor, and carb heavy (it was pointed out to me). Exercise: what? That's currently not really part of my life. So, besides the acupuncture, I'll be needing to make some diet changes & definitely start upping my cardio.

So, when I went in to the office we talked a little about the form I just filled out, then I took my shoes off & got on the the table (Sort of like a massage table). I did not have to remove any clothes, which going into it, I really didn't know. Thank god I didn't just assume that I would, because the acupuncturist would of had quite a surprise! Well, I didn't know anything about acupuncture; I thought she'd have to stick needles near my uterus or something. Um, no, it doesn't work that way!

The acupuncturist, Kim, had me relax on my back, and she inserted about four needles into my left ear, one on my head somewhere, one on my arm, a couple in some fingers, and a few in my foot. There might have been one some where else, too. At first I just felt a little tap, but my ears were sensitive & I could really feel the needles. I let her know & she adjusted & it was much better. The others I didn't feel as much. When she was done she left the room so I could relax for a half hour. At first my mind was racing. I even thought about work, which I never do. And then i was asleep. I had dreams & everything. I opened my eyes & wasn't sure where I was, it was a bit disconcerting! Then a moment later Kim opened the door & asked if I had fallen asleep. I had! Then she asked if I woke up wondering where I was. I did! So, at least I'm normal. She removed all the needles & asked me to relax a little more. But then I got antsy, so I sat there for about 90 seconds & then checked out.

All in all, it was a positive experience. I felt very relaxed afterward (almost stoned), it felt a bit like I do after a massage. So, I'll be going every week for the next couple months. We'll see what happens!

Jeez, this is going to be a long post... So, after my acupuncture I had a party to go to. A fantastic Nestie opened her home to us for a "Heritage GTG" - we each had to bring something tat represented our heritage. I could not think of anything that I could make that would be edible for Norwegian or Czech, so I brought some samosas in honor of my husband's Pakistani heritage.

Everything was so delicious, and the group of people there were so friendly. I love my local Nesties!

I came home, started watching a show about a women's prison & promptly fell asleep. A nice deep, food & acupuncture fueled sleep!

Oh, I also started Clomid on Friday! No side-effects, yet. Crap, now that I've written that I'm pretty doomed to get them, I think!